I’m Not Gonna Ever


I’m Not Gonna Ever by Melodie Yvonne Ramey

Sometimes it’s hate that swallows me whole
It permeates skin and wraps around bones
and right now it seems like it’s one of those times
Putrid thick anger weaves through my mind
Leering at faces behind my red eyes
Blinded by nightmares I breathe into life

Dance with my devils and laugh I’m insane
but I’m not gonna let you do this again

Walk right on over, you walk right on me
I just can’t see why you won’t let me be
I ain’t got nothing, most nothing don’t phase me
So why do you gotta be pushy and change me?
This is my life, and I like how I live it
My heart has run dry, there’s no blood left to give it

Dance with my devils and laugh I’m insane
but I’m not gonna let you change me again

Now I’ll sink back, back into my brain
‘cause if I don’t I might go insane
Hide my soul deep where you won’t be finding
My scissors cut veins and strings that are binding
and not long you’ll see that you just don’t need me
I guess this depression’s a cage, but I’m free

Dance with my devils and laugh I’m insane
but I’m not gonna ever love you again

Dance with my devils and laugh I’m insane
but I’m not gonna ever love me again

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Melodie Yvonne

Melodie Yvonne Ramey, owner, editor, & contributor at Photographic Melodie, grew up in the small southern Indiana town of North Vernon. She picked up her first camera at the young age of 5, and was immediately hooked. Every trip, even just to the local park, was turned into a fantasy scene of her own imagination that would later be turned into epic tales in word and photos.

Melodie spent her teen years learning from and mentoring under professionals such as Richard Young, John Sheckler, and The Grand Conundrum. She received an Associates of Applied Science in Visual Technologies majoring in Photography from Ivy Tech in 2002 after studying under acclaimed professors such as Hoosier photographer Darryl Jones, Jonathan Wilson, and many other masters in the field.

Melodie’s main focus has always been music photography. Growing up with photography and listening to amazing musicians inspired her dream to create visual images that made people feel the way they do when they hear the music. She wanted to help people SEE the music by capturing every magical moment of concerts that she could only dream about as she gazed into music magazines like Rolling Stone and Spin.

Melodie has done numerous jobs around the country ranging from working for bands to even being the official photographer on many southern Indiana Poker Runs. Her specialties are in nature, music, and candid event photography, as well as one of a kind photographic creations. Melodie published her first print book Photographic Memories: In the Beginning, a collection of poetry, in 2011, and has since published 2 more print works, Photographic Memories: Meet me in the Middle and Hoosier Heavens, her first photo book. Melodie currently acts as publisher, editor & lead contributor at Photographic Melodie and does freelance work with many other media outlets, venues, and artists.

Melodie says, “I started out with a Tweety bird camera and a dream and I never let go. I will always love photography and the vessel it has given me to share the images of my heart and mind with the world. I have found that every single person on this earth visualizes the world in very different ways. Some people are optimists, some are pessimists. Some people are daydreamers, and others keep their feet firmly planted on the ground. Photography allows me to show some of these different visualizations. It allows the rationalist to see that it’s okay to dream, it can show the monsters hidden in the dark, and it can show even the saddest of people that there is still joy in the world.”

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